A lot has changed since my last entry. I should hope so since it's been almost a year. Here's a quick update...

Things that have happened:
My Grandma died :(
Got my own apartment!
Got married (now it's no longer my own apt)
First time buying appliances (there's so much to choose from)
That's about it....sad huh? The year has felt much busier

Things that are going on now:
Still married :) It's been about 5.5 months
Finally starting school. I was supposed to last year, but....things happen. It's nice to know that I'm making headway again.
Working only one job. That's really nice. Still working a lot, but, that's what I do. :)

I'm gonna turn 23 in a couple of weeks. AHHHHHH! This marks 5 years out of highschool! That thought hit me a couple weeks ago & it got me thinking about what I had planned for my life when I graduated as opposed to where I'm at now.

Here's what I planned....by the time I turned 23 I should have been finishing up a B.S. in biology from OSU & on my way to Med school. I would've probably been still sharing a house with my bro (unless he got married in which case I probably would've had some other roommate) & loving the single life. No plans for a serious relationship until I finished school.

 Here's what happened....went to OSU for a year, had to drop out & start working fulltime. Lived with bro, enjoyed single life & almost no responsibilities. Grandma got sick & I moved in with her (over to Indiana) to take care of her. My first job met & started dating Sam. A little over a year later my gma dies :(, but instead of moving back to Ohio and enjoying my single life with no responsibilities, I marry Sam & start "enjoying" married life with responsibilities. (He's a wonderful man I just don't like responsibilities ) I go back to school to pursue a nursing degree with a focus in forensics. I decided quite awhile back that I no longer wanted to be a doctor.

It's amazing how far away from my plans I am. However, I am perfectly happy and at peace where I'm at. It's been an interesting and challenging road & as I look back I don't regret a moment. I would not be the person I am today had it not been for those experiences. I can't wait for the next 5, 10, 50 years!

Goals now....Sam & I retire at 40 so we can enjoy ourselves. :)

Life is busy.  Life is good.  Still working two jobs, although now I am once again an aide.  The other job is Kmart. Working days now.  My day now starts at 4 am!  That's something I'm adjusting to.

Granny is doing good, so it looks as if I might move into my own place come spring/summer.  Just a small apartment right up the road  from her.  I'm excited.

Hoping to start school come the fall.  I'll be taking classes for massage therapy.  I have decided to become a chiropractor.  One day I hope to have my own business.

Still going with Sam.  It's been 8 months now!  He's met my family & friends in MI.  They approve.  He's wonderful. 

I am happy.  Life is good.

So, I'm a little pissed off that I'm not being kept in the loop about things.  I realize that I'm a state away, but come-on people, a phone call isn't that difficult.  Especially since over here I don't really have internet access.  (I don't even have a tv) I could use the library, but they're not open 24/7, and it seems that those are my work hours anymore.  Anyway, what I am referring to is the fact that my friends Dan and Sarah are going to have a baby!  And if it's not bad enough that I found out via xanga, they've been pregnant since Sept!  It's Nov people!!!  Anyways, congratulations you two.

A lot of things have happened since my last entry.  I did get accepted, I trained with the vball team all summer, I signed up for classes, I attended orientation, I paid the fees, only to have my financial aid not come in.  That's a long story.  I am now working two jobs saving up money as well as talking to people to get info on financial aid so I can go to school.

When I first moved here I got a job at a place called Pizza Bill's.  The only thing nice that came out of working there was the fact that I met someone who has become my boyfriend (even after 4 months it still feels weird saying that).  I like him.  He likes me.  I help him with his math homework and spelling.  It's been good. 

I now work nights at kmart (I have some nice muscles from stocking) and days at Dollar General.  It's a lot of hours, and I'm glad that I have Sam because he's the only thing keeping me sane.  He's seen me at my worst and he still loves me.  He doesn't have to.  There is something to be said for that.  I don't know what that something is because it utterly confounds me.  Sometimes my head gets in the way.  It's hard for me to not be logical.  Love is not logical.  He is patient.

Sorry, I went off on a tangent there for a moment.  Basically what I'm trying to say is life is good.

One more week, then.....it's off to see the Wizard, the wonderful Wizard of Oz.  I'm getting more excited the closer it comes.  Still having a hard time dealing with the loss of friends.  This'll be the third time in my life that I've had to move away from those I love.

Big news....I applied to a college that's, like, 12 min from my gma's house.  I really hope I get accepted. 1) because then I could start in the fall 2) it's waaaay closer than any other college I was contemplating 3) it's waaay cheaper and finally 4) (this is the best one) if I get accepted it looks as if I'll be playing volleyball for them!  I'm stoked about that.  I wanted to play college vball when I graduated, buuuuut you have to go to school to do that.  Put a little cramp in my plans.  I didn't even think that they'd be interested since I've been out of school for so long.  I've talked with the coach though, and she is!  I've kept up with it a little, and it shouldn't be that hard to pick back up.  Plus I have the whole summer to train with the team before the season starts.

Some things need to fall into place, but it looks as if I might be able to start achieving my dreams!  There's nothing quite like this feeling.  I've done all that I can do.  The rest is up to God.  It's tough submitting, but I'm learning how to.  Slowly but surely......

It's official folks.....I'll be moving over to IN Memorial Day Weekend. I'm excited and a little depressed. Excited because I'll know that my gma is getting good care since I'll be the one giving it to her, and this is my shot to go to finally go back to school. Yay!!! Then I start thinking about leaving friends and family as well as my amazing church and I get a little melancholy.
I'm leaving at the start of summer! That kinda stinks. Since I won't need to pay rent and some other bills I'll be able to afford to visit, though. My goal is once a month, but who knows.
Since I'll be leaving in a months time I plan to make the most of it. So for those of you who know me, get ready for some qt with Paula.
No offense to anyone, but I'm pretty sure the person I'll miss most is my cousin Emily. She's been my refuge and confidant. I love her, and I love the fact that she was totally bummed about me leaving. It felt good to know that I am loved and will be deeply missed by somebody. This might be harder than I thought. Or maybe it won't. In any case, I'm ready for this next adventure.